I am, admittedly, bad at keeping up with this. I kept holding off for a time that felt natural to post but that also strikes me as a symptom of ADHD / OCD / Anxiety (or just the combination of all three.)

Recently, I bought one of the new Gundam models from the Gquuuuuux series and got off to an incredibly slow start. After also picking up the Deathscythe (Gundam Wing), I decided I should probably finish the Zaku.

In a previous post I mentioned my struggles with ADHD and honestly, that’s likely why I’ve had trouble sitting down with model kits. I want it to be done immediately. It wasn’t until Woolie from the Versus Wolves podcast described the “zen” process of sitting down and doing Gunpla that I realized it should be relaxing, not a hassle.

This recontextualized the whole hobby for me.

I knew, of course, that patience was key in the hobby, but I had never thought about it as something meditative or relaxing. When I started the Zaku model, I had to fight every urge to get through it as fast as possible. I had to fight the sensation of “being overwhelmed” when I saw all the instructions. That itch is still there but I somehow managed to take my time with it and enjoy it!

One thing I do want to note is that the instructions still do feel overwhelming, but it moves much quicker than you think. Before I knew it I had the torso and a whole arm put together. I can easily seem myself knocking out the other arm and maybe the legs in another session. It will be over before I know it and I’ll be excited to move onto the next.

I haven’t made music in a long, long time. My last “release” was the nanocarbon shrine single, but my last album was “Welcome to the NET” in 2022. That’s a solid 3 years since I’ve done a full album. A lot has happened between then and now, and I do want to put another album together, but maybe I’ll take my time. Patience is key.