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Tag: patience

  • Bit by bit.

    neon

    I am, admittedly, bad at keeping up with this. I kept holding off for a time that felt natural to post but that also strikes me as a symptom of ADHD / OCD / Anxiety (or just the combination of all three.)

    Recently, I bought one of the new Gundam models from the Gquuuuuux series and got off to an incredibly slow start. After also picking up the Deathscythe (Gundam Wing), I decided I should probably finish the Zaku.

    In a previous post I mentioned my struggles with ADHD and honestly, that’s likely why I’ve had trouble sitting down with model kits. I want it to be done immediately. It wasn’t until Woolie from the Versus Wolves podcast described the “zen” process of sitting down and doing Gunpla that I realized it should be relaxing, not a hassle.

    This recontextualized the whole hobby for me.

    I knew, of course, that patience was key in the hobby, but I had never thought about it as something meditative or relaxing. When I started the Zaku model, I had to fight every urge to get through it as fast as possible. I had to fight the sensation of “being overwhelmed” when I saw all the instructions. That itch is still there but I somehow managed to take my time with it and enjoy it!

    One thing I do want to note is that the instructions still do feel overwhelming, but it moves much quicker than you think. Before I knew it I had the torso and a whole arm put together. I can easily seem myself knocking out the other arm and maybe the legs in another session. It will be over before I know it and I’ll be excited to move onto the next.

    This model is very cool, but also, ACAB. ACAB.

    I haven’t made music in a long, long time. My last “release” was the nanocarbon shrine single, but my last album was “Welcome to the NET” in 2022. That’s a solid 3 years since I’ve done a full album. A lot has happened between then and now, and I do want to put another album together, but maybe I’ll take my time. Patience is key.

  • Patience. Again.

    neon

    A few weeks ago I mentioned that I was attempting to propagate the house plant gifted to us by friends. It’s been a learning experience, both in the actual process and in practicing patience.

    I’ve never been great at that. Maybe it’s rooted in ADHD, maybe not – but I have a tendency to rush ahead for better or worse. With this, however, there’s not much of a choice other than to “wait and see.”

    The leaves in the planter look healthy still, but I’m also trying to propagate in water with a few clippings. With a heartleaf philodendron plant it can take something like 4-5 weeks, maybe more, for roots to start showing. I’ve seen people recommend waiting for those roots to grow more roots before moving it to a planter.

    There’s a part of me that wants to call it another failed project or to childishly blame it on my own lack of skill but I’m trying my best to just let it be.

    We’ll see how it goes.

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